Saturday, August 25, 2007

1:23 PM

Nothing could have ever prepared me for this. Yes, there were warning signs. Probably over a dozen.. but I lost count. I just stopped caring. Never about you though, that was the problem, the person I stopped caring about was myself. I lost all self-worth, and the price that I had to pay for love was more than one ever should. All that has been taken from me at this point is more than can ever be measured. I honestly couldn't even tell you what's left.

I've held out for too long. For much longer than I ever should have. Today ends that, though. No more making excuses for you. No more lying to myself and denying the facts that have been made so obvious. So what if I'm in love with you? It's time for me to realize that's not enough. I can't keep this relationship going by myself, and I don't want to anymore. I deserved so much more, and you knew it all along. You were supposed to be the one, and damnit.. you could have been. But I cannot keep waiting around for a change that's never going to come.

As much as this hurts, I know someday I'll be okay again. Not right now.. not for awhile.. but someday. For all the pain I feel at this moment, I have to remind myself that it's either this or more of what you've been doing to me for the past year. And all of that combined feels just as horrible as having to walk away does. It really does. But enough is enough, and it's time I fight for myself again. 0 ♥

WHO I AM;

Rachel
Nineteen
In love
Proud mama

MY MUSIC;

HOW I FEEL;

Broken

MY PAST;

August 2007 l

JUST REMEMBER;

Everything will be okay in the end;
If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

LAYOUT;

Thanks Jenn :]